☆ why can't we make this darkness feel like home ?? ☆

just gain lil weight ! yeay ! i want to be chubby ! \m/

2010-03-23T14:57:00.002+08:00

it's been a long while i didnt active my blog because i'm busy with foods ! hahahaha no laa~ just lazy ^^

it's Brunei National Day honeyh (23rd.Feb.2010)

2010-02-25T10:33:00.003+08:00

chilling at Rai's crib with EXTENSION ;p

2010-02-14T12:32:00.004+08:00

i love SCORPIO !! \m/

2010-02-09T18:19:00.001+08:00

.Loves to chat.

.Loves those who loves them.

.Loves to takes things at the center.

.Inner and physical beauty.

.Lies but doesn’t pretend.

.Gets angry often.

.Treats friends importantly.

.Always making friends.

.Easily hurt but recovers easily.

.Daydreamer.

.Opinionated.

.Does not care of what others think.

.Emotional, decisive, strong clairvoyance.

.Loves to travel, arts and literature.

.Touchy and easily jealous.

.Concerned.

.Loves outdoors.

.Just and fair.

.Spendthrift .

.Easily influenced.

.Easily loses confidence.

.Loves children .

i just think this is sooooo sweeet ^^

2010-01-30T22:30:00.002+08:00

Girl :saya cantik tak?

Boy :tak

Girl :awak nak hidup bersama saya tak?

Boy :tak

Girl :AWAK AKAN NGIS TAK KALAU SAYA TINGGAL KAN AWAK?

Boy :tak

Girl mula ngis.... boy tarik rapat dan berkata

Awak tak cantik tapi awak yang tercantik,saya tak nak hidup ngan awak tapi saya nak hidup untuk awk,sya tak kan ngis klau awk tgglkan sya tpi sya akan mati....

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW~~~~~~~~
NO SUGAR ADDED !!

30.01.2010 in memories ;(

2010-01-30T22:13:00.002+08:00

Today
Tonight
is the last time i saw my beloved baby cotton,
i love her
she's still a kitten
and HELL YEAH !
i do really love her,
i shared my secret with her
all she can do just ' meooooww ' cute-lyyy
i misss her badly
how can she leaved me ~~~~~
;'(
i never regret having a cute baby kitty like you ~
i love you cotton
and i miss you already
come and meet me sometimes.....
in my dream
;'(

i know it's kinda silly, stupid~
but you can't feel what i feel . . .

exwhyzee !

2010-01-22T18:31:00.003+08:00

I like someone who is a little crazy
but coming from a good place . . .

I think scars are sexy
because it means you made a mistake that led to a mess . . .

People might think I don't know what they did behind me
but one day the truth are in my side . . .

I might be Lame
but
I'm not stupid . . .

exwhyzee

BSE vs MME, 9-8 woohoo BSE \m/

2010-01-22T14:56:00.003+08:00

the day my tears begin to flowwww !! .l.

2010-01-16T20:57:00.003+08:00

when 2010 and sunburn strikes !

2010-01-10T13:31:00.004+08:00

PART TWO

how i wish . . .

2009-12-26T01:37:00.003+08:00

OH GOD !
Seriously i can't sleep !!
why ~~~
*sob2

this pix, bru jer habis buat . .
i almost cry nak finished it !
it's kinda messy ~
and it's hard for me to choose which pix is suitable ~

sorry, mesti my pix yg besar, mcm besar kepale :s
hard to adjust ~
but finally i tried to covered
now ! it's perfect !
for me laaa~
HAHAHAHA
--'

i know my love always busy these lately,
for avoiding the lonely feeling,
i spend my time with his pix
hahahahahaha

i feel half-dead !
I CAN'T SLEEP !!!!
how i wish you know what i feel . . .
i miss you !
seriously . . .
*sobbing

i thought buat this pix can make me sleepy,
but . . . . . .
i'm ALMOST CRAZY !!!!!
DONE !!

♥ Haq

now or never

2009-12-25T22:01:00.002+08:00

dear diary, bored story of mine !

early morning,
hospital
with mumy.

meet the doctor,
talk, talk, talk,
abt my heart and my lungs.

eat stupid medicine,
started felt want to faint.

i can't hear clearly,
for sure, i can't hangout for 2 or 3 months.
and i got terrible flu !
and bla bla bla . . .

I'M NOT SICK !
I'M HEALTHY !
I KNOW I'M STARTED TO LOSE PEOPLE THAT I LOVED !
AND I DON'T NEED TO ATTRACT THEM BACK,
JUST BECAUSE THESE SHITS !
I JUST NEED MY HEART BACK !
PLEASE . . . .
;'(

me love

2009-12-25T13:18:00.001+08:00

GARASI - HILANG

Dimanakah cinta sejati
Yang memberi ketenangan hati..
Sampai kapanku harus menanti,
Kau pergi dan mungkin tak kan kembali..
Dan aku menangis dan aku terluka..
Bila..
Dan aku menangis dan aku terluka….
Bilaa…
Engkau menghilang…
Kau pergi dari ku tinggal kan ku
Lewati malam tanpa kasihmu
Ku rangkai kata
Ku rangkai nada
Yang ku inginkan hanyalah cinta
Dan semua menghilang..
Dan semua menghilang..
Dan semua menghilang..
Semua karena cinta ku menangis
Semua karena cinta ku tertawa
Semua karena cinta..
Semua karena cinta..
Dan kau tinggalkan hanyalah luka
Dan semua menghilang..
Dan semua menghilang..
Dan semua menghilang..
Semua karena cinta ku menangis
Semua karena cinta ku tertawa
Semua karena cinta..
Semua karena cinta..

*it's simple but it's deep and meaningful to me <3

life full of Karma !

2009-12-24T14:40:00.001+08:00

Sekian lama kita bersama
Ternyata kau juga, sama saja
Kau kira kupercaya semua
S'gala tipu daya, oh percuma

Kau buat sempurna, awalnya
Berakhir bencana
Reff I :

Selamat tinggal sayang
Bila umurku panjang, kelak ku kan datang
'tuk buktikan, satu balas 'kan kau jelang
Jangan menangis sayang
Kuingin kau rasakan, pahitnya terbuang
Sia-sia, memang kau pantas dapatkan

Akhirnya, usai sudah semua
Kudapat tertawa, bahagia

S'lalu tampak indah, awalnya
Berakhir bencana …

Kembali ke Reff I

Kau buat sempurna, awalnya
Berakhir bencana

Reff II : Selamat tinggal sayang
Bila umurku panjang, kelak ku kan datang
'Tuk buktikan, satu balas 'kan kau jelas
Jangan menangis sayang
Kuingin kau rasakan, pahitnya terbuang
Sia-sia, memang kau pantas dapatkan

I LOVE THIS SONG
AND MY HAQ LOVES IT TOO
I LOVE MY CINTA

when my fucking tears comes out !

2009-12-24T00:38:00.003+08:00

i guess today is not my happy nor lucky day
semua layan me like a trash . . .
throw your mad and bad words on me . .
i just need people that i loves back !

look ! i understand in your all situation
but why don't ya' all try to understand me ??
even sikit ??
i just need your lovesssss even sikit ~~~
and it's enough for me . . ,

sometimes i did silly things,
and it might be hurting you
or whatever lah
i did FOR NOTHING
it's just for fun~
and you take it SERIOUSLY
i'm sorry

i don't want any misunderstood,
and i dn't want it's end of you and me neither . . .
i need you

i dnt want to waste my tears just for all of these . .
if you dnt need me just say it~
i wont bother you all
soo please ~
be honest might be help me . .

just let you all know
I'M TOO WEAK TO HANDLE THIS !
NOT STRONG AS YOU THINK !
BUT
I WON'T GIVING UP !

we are sweet like ambuyat, nyaman macam mee sedap ! LOL

2009-12-12T14:23:00.002+08:00

niceee !!
i looike !
haha
(Y)

Vennessa Suhana, you brighten my life <3

2009-12-11T18:27:00.002+08:00

when i'm sad,
she's the one who makes me happy

when i cry,
she's the one who makes me laugh

when i need love,
she's the one who gives me a hug
*i wish . . .

when i'm totally in pain,
she's the one who makes me smile . . .

wishing i'm just like her,
there's nothing to worried about ,
all she knows just
CRAVING FOR MILKS !
\m/
Zee sayang Vannessa Suhanaa <3

untitled perfect !

2009-12-10T23:27:00.004+08:00

I can't stand the pain And I can't make it go away
I try not to think About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be My hero?
All the days You spent with me
Now seem so far away And it feels like you don't Care anymore

I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good Enough for you
I can't stand another fight And nothings alright

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be Perfect

best couple in my heart ^^

2009-12-10T19:05:00.006+08:00

Jane cinta Jack
...rock but romantic...

Gbah cinta Din
...naughty but sweet...

Dyana cinta Faiz
...cheeky but cute...

not the same kid from your memory .l.

2009-12-10T18:49:00.002+08:00

heavy rain here ...
it's kinda cold !
superr duper cold !
haha

hell yeah ~ zee's still here,
i'm moving on honeyh ~
forget the past . . .
it's kinda hurt ~
lies for own good
err yeah ~
i don't know lah ~

i don't mind and i'm still zee
what happens to me next ~
i'm just face it and let it go ~

p/s : don't teach me shits like you did, u'll see what's happens next .l.
peace ^^

giving up ^^

2009-12-07T02:40:00.003+08:00

what did i feel when. . .

he really need the words 'i love you' from other girls ??
______i'm started to fade . . .

he said that he never contact with that girl anymore, but he never lose contact with her . . .
______scars started give my heart a DAMN pain . . .

the day, that girl said he always makes her happy . . .
______the day, he started to lose me . . .

he gives her compliment with 'cute' words, he did the same on me . . .
______the day i started to lose my trust on him . . .

*Things get so complicated day by day . . .

by all of these, i started to understand ~
he needs someone really exist and can be with him for REAL. . .
well ~ that's nice, that girl seems can make him happier . .
i don't mind and i can move on :)
thank you for everything love ~
^^
fade . . .

xyzee zawitaaa \m/

the sisters were here \m/

2009-11-29T22:49:00.002+08:00

i LOVE you so much ! <3

2009-11-22T21:19:00.003+08:00

When it gets hard, lucky in my life you come towards me like a dream when I get sad, lucky in my dream you hold me tight with warm embrace.
I smile like this, always even when the world makes it hard I don't ever want to show my tears. even though you don't know my heart yet because I can still keep your smile, even from afar, it's a relief.

When I want to cry, lucky in my love you look so handsome in my imagination when I'm frustrated, lucky in my world you hold me tight like a dream.
I smile like this, always even when the world makes it hard I don't ever want to show my tears.

Even though you don't know my heart yet because I can still keep your smile, even from afar, it's a relief.
Everything is beautiful. I'm so happy. I make a wish again in this lonely world.

I smile like this, always even when the world makes it hard I don't ever want to show my tears. even though you don't know my heart yet because I can still keep your smile, even from afar, it's a relief.
Take one step towards me.

he and she <3

2009-11-21T19:32:00.004+08:00

one day HE wish HE want to be alone . . . . . . . . . . .

SHE's wondering ...
that's mean, for all these past time,
when HE be with SHE,
HE wished that HE never loved SHE ??

was SHE happy by her own ??
was SHE always be a trouble in his life ??

HE ~~ is SHE a useless girlfriend in your life ??
do HE really wants to leave SHE ??

HE ~~ are HE regret being SHE's boyfriend ??
do HE really don't need a useless girlfriend like SHE ??

do HE mean it when HE wished to be alone ??
wishing SHE will not be yours ??

SHE kinda sad . . .
but in whatever decision that HE made,
SHE will take it happily . . .

SHE really loves HE soo much . . .
but SHE don't want HE thinking about SHE's feeling . . .

what is more better to HE is might be better also for SHE
^^

Peace cinta <3
*just a lame story from me . . .

my lame heart
2009-11-19T23:18:00.004+08:00

who cares right ?
i don't know ~
i just feel so sad lately ...
i thot he will miss me ...
but clearly NOT
;(

if you really don't need me anymore,
you just can simply leave me ...
and please don't hurt me ...
don't treat me like this ...
;(

try to understand when your busy with your life ...
til no time with me ...
baby i need you sometimes ...
;(

troubles always on by my side ...
I'm so far away from you ...
find the other girls to replaced me,
it might leaves soo much pain on me ...
i don't mind and i understand
at least your happy ...
;(

i always happy when be with you ...
i hide my sad feelings ...
i hide my sadness with so much troubles around me ...
;(

when i'm sad, did you know ?
can you feel ??
when i need you, did you need me back ?
i feel so wasted ...

lame tears hurts my lame heart alot ...
I MISS YOU ...
I LOVE YOU ...
Do you ?
Sorry i can't be the perfect love in your heart

. . . . LAME TEARS FALLING DOWN, SUCH A SHITSS . . . .

lame \m/

2009-11-18T20:42:00.002+08:00

coverall with high heels
LOL !

the day after the sadness \m/

2009-11-13T16:17:00.003+08:00

\m/ jobless during eyeACHE

2009-11-06T15:13:00.002+08:00

from my beloved family ♥

2009-10-28T20:38:00.003+08:00

from my mates ! i love you all ~ thanks alot ♥

2009-10-28T19:48:00.002+08:00

my 19th birthday, from HIM ♥

2009-10-28T19:24:00.004+08:00

GUE SAYANG DIA SOOO MUCH !

♥

1st gift from my mom ~ zee cinta mama !!

2009-10-26T19:50:00.002+08:00

i named this gift as JAM AJAIB haha
i totally in love with it ~
soo cool ~
thank you mumy ~
i always cinta and sayang kat mumy
emwhugs !!

. . . MANY KINDS OF ME, LOL . . .

2009-09-26T00:17:00.002+08:00

. . . B E R H A B U K . . .

2009-09-26T00:00:00.003+08:00

I miss my blog !
and happy happy raya !
HAHAHAHAHA

\m/ alhamduLLilah ~ \m/

2009-06-23T12:51:00.003+08:00

xox [yeay ! Alhamdullilah ~ i've been accepted study-ing at MKJB - technicaL coLLege' in Kb !] xox
-i'm totaLLy happy ! Thank God ~
*nda disangka2~
alhamduLLilah ~

xo [ i cutted my front hair by myself ! LOLs ! ] ox

2009-05-18T20:17:00.002+08:00

xo [ well ~ saja2 nada kn dibuat ! ] ox
xo [ biasa2 ja sulnya ] ox
xo [ nothing special ! ] ox
xo [ LOLs ! ] ox

xo [ kinda crex ! LOLs ! ] ox

T H E N D
and
I L O V E Y O U T O O !
LOLss !

▀ the reflectionss ! same pozeees of mine ! HAHA ▀

2009-04-30T23:42:00.002+08:00

Location ::
Hua Ho Tanjung BuNuT
2nd Floor !

ModeLss ::
LiL dude iMan , LiL babe iZaty aNd me !

see the same posses of mine !
LOLss !

BoooRiingsss . . . ! !

- T H E E N D -
dah2 ! eNuf2 !
LOLs !

\m/ rawk time with my sys \m/

2009-04-28T23:40:00.004+08:00

27th.ApriL.20o9

The daY i went to admin coLLege with my sys -V-. .
ambiL surat bah ee
surat cintaaa ~
LOLs !

-V-
nee nahh my sys ~
rambut palsu towh !!
LOLss !
nada lah ~
original x aA
xp

nee~ surat cinta yg ku ambil aa ~
alamat nya mo tau jua ka??
kaji lah ~
pai dapat~
LOLs !

haaa~ aFta that !
w0o0~ the 1stym in my life~
i'LL never ever forget this moment !
my sys bwa bLajar driving w0o ~
at first i thot ya men2
pnya seriously ~
1stym neyh ku membwa krita ~
gila ~barat eyh krita 2~
ngaleh ku ngangkat !

"MANUAL" x aA ~ terror kn ku ??
weLL ~ yat urang laaa ~
wawawawawa !!

overaLL~
we having so much fun !
ku malar "main" brake,pai kuar gigiran urang atu~
"EY SATU, DUa, TIGA,EY EY !"
LOLss ~
ruGged x aA my sys gigiran ~
if uat lagu rap wuged 2~
LOLs ~

For sure ~ nada marah2
nada mental2
smuanya fun aNd \m/ !!
yeahh !!
Thanks to my sys sal jadiikn hari tu, hari terindah buat ku~
sejarah hidup yg sungguh 'membanggakn'
**tearss ov joy**
w0oseyhh ~
jgn em0o2 eyyy~
control dikit !
LOLs
LOVE YOU SYS !
THANK YOU SO MUCH !

▀▄▀▄ firsT time at Miri ▀▄▀▄

2009-04-28T16:43:00.004+08:00

guess where ?? yeaaahh ~ Mirii ~ BOULEVARD kaa naMa nyaa ?? LOLss !

weLL ~ 1st tym x aA ~ dh aLmost 17 years ku nda ke-Miri ~
26th.April.2o09
lupa ku dah laii cana usul Miri neyh ~
LOLss !

1st trip - parKson
2nd - imPeriaL ka namanya ?? o imperium ??
3rd - Boulevard *ngam ka ??
4th - e-maRt !!
5th - iMmegrsin ~
LOLs !

na ku tau ngam kaA nda ejaan ku 2 ~
jnjii ada bunyii baA tewhsss
xp

weLL ~ i stiLL love Bruneii ~
ukn plng nda suka Mirii
just blum g dpt menyesuaikn diri g ~
barang2 nya jaaa yg nada jual diBrunei ~
ada ku suka Barang nya yg nada jual diBrunei
LOLs !

satu nganyaa pix ku ambil time di Miri ~
pyh ku kn mengambr waa
asal ku kn mengambar ~ ada tia urang asi2
prasan ku kn gmbr ya. .
malass tia ku nah ~
LOLss !

- E N D -

-ngaLeh ku 'beceta'-

[ ALHAMDULLILAH !! ]

2009-04-25T16:47:00.003+08:00

FirstLy ~ Ya Allah ~ thank you so much ~ from my heart and soul ~i do really thanked to Allah ! Today , 25th. April. 2o09 , i really happy coz dapat news sal dpt interview from Mkjb .
interview on 5th.May.2009, Wish me luck during intrview aaa ~ and doakn jua kana trima study disana. Alhamdullilah ~

▀▄▀▄ The night aT BSRC ▀▄▀▄

2009-04-22T23:23:00.007+08:00

★LOCATION ::
☆BSRC

★FUNCTION ::
☆USU JI & USU INAH ANNiVERSARY

★MODELS ::
☆IIN [CUZZY] IZA[LIL BABE] zEE[ME]

★STATUS ::
☆Our family and cuzzies still mumam and kami [3 babes] afta mumam taus chow cari lokasi kn poze-ing ! LOLs

♥maLass bah ~ ugLy saya eyy !

↑
♥saPa bilang gadis melayu tak menawan ! ewah !
↓

♥sTress ku kantut ku nam0o kuar aa ! LOLs **kiddings**

♥**kiraii2**

♥kusutsss ! keep in \m/ baybeyh !

♥iin , iza & me ~ go go stairs babes rangers !! LOLs

★Tired ! oTw baLik ~ my LiL br0o tit0o dah aaa !

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