now or never

dear diary, bored story of mine !

early morning,
hospital
with mumy.

meet the doctor,
talk, talk, talk,
abt my heart and my lungs.

eat stupid medicine,
started felt want to faint.

i can't hear clearly,
for sure, i can't hangout for 2 or 3 months.
and i got terrible flu !
and bla bla bla . . .

I'M NOT SICK !
I'M HEALTHY !
I KNOW I'M STARTED TO LOSE PEOPLE THAT I LOVED !
AND I DON'T NEED TO ATTRACT THEM BACK,
JUST BECAUSE THESE SHITS !
I JUST NEED MY HEART BACK !
PLEASE . . . .
;'(